Limited Edition

Undergoing treatment comes with limitations.

There's a monthly (bike) ride happening tonight that I desperately want to participate in. I had CyberKnife yesterday, so I was curious about going on a bike ride tonight. I finally got a hold of my nurse in Radiation Oncology who feels it's probably not a good idea to go on longer rides right now. She asked if I was having any headache and I said yes (which is common, evidently). She didn't think being out in the sun was a good idea right now. The doctor feels it's a good idea to keep rides at a "leisurely pace" and under 10 miles round trip until radiation is complete and I can be evaluated (MRI and CT).

Unfortunately, the total distance for my ride tonight would be at a minimum 16, but likely around 20-22. It really bothers me to not be able to ride longer distances right now. I know I couldn't do a hammer ride or anything - but I feel like if I could go slow enough (10-12 MPH) I could easily bang out 20+ miles...

Bleh.

I'm going to buy some panniers for my hybrid bicycle and start exclusively biking to the store (weather permitting) so that I have that excuse to hop on my bike. I only live a mile away from my office, but the short ride to work in the morning has been liberating. I'm slightly afraid of riding up the hill, because the last time I did that was when I started having headaches - then they found the tumors in my brain.

I understand the reason for limitations, but in a way they make me feel like slightly less of a person sometimes.